Gay Man Trapped in A Woman's Body

Parkinson Why do you think the gays
particularly love you?

Madonna Maybe I'm a gay man trapped
in a woman's body.

Get Together - Madonna

Monday Morning Blues

Gosh! Its monday morning.
I don't feel like going to work
at all!

I wanna sleep in!

Jump - Madonna

Where Are You, Condom?

As i passed by the highway, i dropped by
the first petrol station. Nope, they don't
sell condoms. Went to the next station, not
sold there too. Moved on to the third and last
one... sigh! Neither do they don't sell condoms.

Here we are, advocating about safe sex.
But its so hard to get one...

7-11... still the friendly neighbourhood store.

Hung Up - Madonna

It's Your Fault Alen!

Still awake playing the Hexic games
on MSN Messenger with Alen.

Gosh i think i'm hooked on it. If i do,
Alen, i will hold you responsible!!!
You invited me to play!

Jump - Madonna

Budapest Operetta Theatre Orchestra

Nadia told me yesterday that she got hold
of tickets to a charity orchestra tonight and
asked if i am interested to go. Of course i am.

Was so excited, but was put off by the fact
that the dress code was dark lounge suit.
Asked around what exactly is that. Damn!
Don't tell me i have to wear a coat!

This morning as i reached office, told my boss
i can't stay late and have to leave at 5, latest
515PM. At 545PM (late by half an hour!), i
rushed home. Got caught in a massive jam,
but luckily managed to make it home on time
to have a short rest and took a shower.

Then at 730PM rushed out to meet Nadia but
again... got stuck in the jam! We were late,
risked being denied entry until intermission,
and we were contemplating of going for
cheese cake instead.

Since this was our first time to an orchestra,
we thought we would still try. When we went
into the carpark, we were so relieved! They
were many of them waiting at the lift, and
some only wore long sleeve shirt, with no tie
nor coat. I decided that i should go sans my
tie and coat too.

Well... Malaysians are Malaysians... The show
started at 845PM, and there are still many
latecomers after that! Goodness!

The orchestra was so-so (average) to me.
Almost fell asleep at the beginning. I can't
see myself enjoying the sopranos
and tenors' performances.

Nevertheless, the music was wonderful.

My All - Mariah

For Mom

I pray for mom's well-being.

O Holy Night - Jewel

I Love You, Mom & Dad

I realised this morning how much
my parents meant to me, how
important they are in my life, and
how much i love them.

I thank god for keeping them safe

I am just glad they are unhurt in
the accident.

How can someone just hit you
and ran away. Such irresponsible
and cold blooded jerk! What if this
happens to your own parents???

I love you, mom...
I love you too, dad.

I Know Why - Sheryl Crow

Not to A Girl

Me So how's preparation for your wedding?

Wang Okay. What about u?

Me What - what about me?

Wang When are you gonna get hitched?

Me I will never get married!

Well, at least not to a girl!

Shake It Off - Mariah

C O N G R A T S ! You Have Been Booked

Thu 17.11.05 PM

Left office at 8PM. Was already
late for an appoitment. Halfway
driving, my stomach acted up on me!

Fuck! What a great timing! I'm
late and you are doing this to me!

Had to stop at a gas station and
relieve myself.

Then continued with journey...
and only then i realised there was
a piece of familiar looking paper
flipping on my wiper.

CONGRATS... you have been booked!

I had pre-paid the parking until 4.45PM,
just 15 minutes short of the time those
surprisingly hardworking blue uniformed
suckers booked me...

But who can i blamed... for 20cents,
now i gotta pay RM30! Cheapo

Or should i toss that little piece of rubbish
into trash?

Leap of Innocence - Liz Phair
Podcast on www.lizphair.com

My Sinful Indulgence

Wed 16.11.05 PM

We were there at 9 and headed
to Haagen Dazs to check
the time they close. The girl
simply pointed at the sign on
the wall with a care-less attitude.

Sigh. Why are people in the
service industry so rude nowadays?

As they close at midnight, Nadia &
i decided to have dinner first
before going back to HD for our
macadamia brittle & my favorite
brandied black cherry.

Oh bitch! You can't spoil my day!

Hung Up - Madonna
from MTV European Music Awards

32 Hours & Still Going...

I can't believe i have not slept
the past 32 hours...

I Wish You Knew - Mariah

Wide Awake

Gosh! What's wrong?

I had prepared myself to sleep early.
Was surfing and chatting happily,
and when it hit 230AM, i ended all
chats and went to bed.

Then i realised i had not burned
my photo cd. Got up, on the PC,
started burning the files.

And i logged on until 300AM.

Then went back to bed. But couldn't
sleep.

Got up. On the PC and worked on
some of my photo files.

Went to bed again at 500AM. Tossed
and turned... and here i am again...

Damn, and i need to go work in a while!

I hope i can stay awake.

Tic tic tic tic - My ikea wall clock

My Free Mug

After our steamboat dinner, we dropped
by at a nearby hypermarket to do some
shopping. Nadia wanted to stock up her
milk powder.

Had no intention of buying anything, since
i am real broke. But you know 'window
shopping' la... ended up grabbing few items.

There was a free mug that comes with my
3-in-1 mochacinno. Went to get it from the
customer service counter and then happily
went to our car.

Opened the passenger door, got in... and
was about to close the door...

K-L-I-N-G-G-G-G...

My new free mug fell on the floor! FUCK!

O Holy Night - Mariah

Pok Kai Already

02.59.14PM
My Nokia RING RING... RING RING... RING RING...

Me Hello...

Yew Wei! Still sleeping meh?

Me Mmmm yes woh.

Yew Eh... Got mariah we belong together vinyl la.

Me Aiyoh... No money la...

Yew Somemore got a lot it's like that,
the white colour cover 1 la...

Me But 2 tracks only rite... No money la...

Yew Okay lo then.

11.48.23PM - MSN Chat

Me Wei! This afternoon yew called said
got mariah vinyl le.

Alen Fast fast go buy!

Me Chisin!

Alen I thought you got mariah collection 1 mah.

Me Yes la, but i pok kai already!

pok kai = broke = no more money = bankrupt

Don't Forget About Us - Mariah

It's Sooooo OVER Part 2

The break up was really bad. It took
almost a year to finally BREAK up
for good.

Many times i had closed my heart,
but foolishly open up and let you
back in... only to be bruised by your
heartlessness again... and again...

I had never spoken about the real
reasons for the split, for i have always
respected and wanted to protect you.
But I felt so betrayed when i read what
you wrote. I AM disgusted.

Whatever good memories we had...
They were all erased by your wicked
ways of dealing with the break-up.

Reasons to be Beautiful - Hole

It's Sooooo OVER Part 1

This morning, or rather yesterday morning,
i was out late and came back around 6am.

Was not sleepy, so i logged on to the net.
Saw something i'd rather not see.

My mind was off tangent for a while. I was
overwhelmed with a fearful feeling. I didn't
know how i would take it...

Anger... Disappointment... Sadness...
Anger... More anger...

I managed to sleep after tossing and turning
for the longest time.

A call from EM woke me up...

I was still down...

Went to the net, chatted...

Felt better.

It was you who chucked me out when your
past caught up with you. I never gave up on
you at your darkest moments. I was always
there with my open arms. You chose to give
up on me when things were too much for
you to handle. How many times have you
came back and i took you in with no questions
at all?

Now, you blame me...

Hark The Herald Angel Sings - Mariah

He Was Kinda Cute

Went to McD for the tea time combos
at about 4pm. Had the apple pie & coke
combo for RM3. It's a good deal,
i would say.

While eating halfway, i noticed that
the man opposite me was stealing
glances at me!

Hell! I am still attractive!

And he was kinda CUTE! He was
with another man, who looked like his
colleague. We both kept exchanging
glances but i wasn't sure... My gaydar
wasn't working...

Then i noticed wedding ring on his finger.

FUCK! Not another fucking married man
who wants his dick sucked!

But Julian, I'm A Little Bit Older Than You
- Courtney Love

5-year Expiry Date

What is reality? Reality is how
we perceive things as...

Sunday night, as anna & i was
savouring our macadamia nuts
and strawberry ice cream, we
pondered about our singlehood.

I have to admit that i have already
gotten used to being single. But
then again, we both agree that
single or attached, there are pros
and cons.

We wondered why some people
could feel miserable being single.
That life could never be good if
there's no the other half.

Why do we need another person
to decide for our own happiness.
Can life only be meaningful when
there is someone special in our live?

Anna then said, Wouldn't it be nice
if all relationships will only last 5 years,
and after that everyone moves on to
another relationship.

I was doubtful... How can i agree to that?

After all, right or wrong, reality or not,
it's how we look at things, right?,
she added.

Mmmm i thought, why not? It's not
a bad idea, provided that after the
5 years, there must not be
any heartbreak involved.

Damn, what is wrong with both of us?

With You, I'm Born Again - Mariah & John Legend

Coffee & Cheesecake... & 3 Bitches

Shan's Vienna Coffee
















My Blueberry Cheesecake
















Sorry Celina, yours is just too
uncool to take pictures of!

Nothing Compares 2U - Sinead O'Connor

Who Let The Bitches Out?

A great weekend.

A beautiful saturday, spent catching up
with Celina & her divalicious (bitchy to some)
sister, Shan. We were bitching about
everything from school life to shopping in
Singapore, from Mariah to Madonna... to
J-Lo's passion for fur.

Shan & i refused to budge from our seat
at the lounge as we were having so much fun
bitching, but Celina kept pestering us to go
so that she can have a theraphy for her
depression - SHOPPING!

Thank god she managed to lay her eyes
on a pair of very fine wedge... priced close to
four figures. You go, girl!
_____________________________________

A superb sunday with the always giggly Anna.

Another day full of sins... from bitching about
people that we know... to people that we
don't know!

But nothing beats the sinful pleasure of a tub of
Haagen Dazs! Except that there was no romance
whatsoever between the two sharing the tub.

How sad...

Solitaire - Clay Aiken (isn't he cute?)
and some other sad love songs...
Dunno why... just in the mood...

Lame Pick Up Line

Gwei Lo Hi! How are you?

Me Fine thanks

Gwei Lo You look kinda familiar...
Have we met somewhere?
Frangi? LQ?

Methink L A M E

Gwei Lo = Mat Salleh = Caucasian Man

Making It Last All Night (What It Do) - Mariah
First listen on aol.com

Fuck! Must be the tom yam dinner!

Was getting ready for bed at 600AM.

Turned the lights off, took all my clothes off.

Playing boring brickgames on my Nokia.

Arghhh what's wrong?! Stomachache!

Fuck! Must be the tom yam dinner!

What Makes You Happy - Liz Phair

My Boy is Wenworth Miller!

Opps... It's
Wenworth Miller,
not Miller Wenworth.
(got his name the
other way round in
my earlier post).


How can i not have one posting
especially dedicated to this cutie.
He's H O T !

First noticed him in Mariah's video,
and knew that he is in a series,
called Prison Break.

Polyester Bride - Liz Phair

I'm In A Relationship With A Man!

Okay, since we are on the topic of cakoi,
let me write about how i came out to
my best straight friend.

It must have been in 2003(?). He had just came
back from Sabah, where he was posted. We had
arranged for a seafood dinner at his favourite
seafood restaurant.

I looked forward to meeting him as we had
not met for long... and it was always such
fun hooking up with cakoi.

But at the same time, i was in such a bad
state of mind. The relationship was hitting
the rocks, but not quite over yet. That was
the worst thing that could happen to a relationship.
Issit over, issit not?

I decided that i wanted to come out to him,
and be frank about what i was going through.

We went and had a fabulous dinner. I've
always enjoyed looking at cakoi choosing
those dead & supposedly fresh seafood.
We talked, caught up with each other...
Somehow, cakoi could sense something
wrong with me, but i brushed him off.

While on our way home, i thought this was
the moment... the B I G moment.

Me Cakoi, i have something to tell you...
I hope you won't get a shock of your life...

Cakoi (very disinterested) Yeah!

Me I'm serious man!

Cakoi (still disinterested) Okay?!

Me Mmmm i dunno how to put it...

Silence

Cakoi What issit? Tell me la.

Me Mmmm stay calm when i tell u okay?

Cakoi (getting excited) OMG! What issit?

Me I'm in a relationship... But it's not a usual
relationship... And i'm not sure if you can
accept this...

Cakoi (more and more excited) Don't tell me
you are seeing an old rich lady???

Me NOOOO!!!

Cakoi Mmmm someone handicapped? In a
wheel chair?

Me Not that...
I'm...

Cakoi You're with a widow? A divorcee???

Me Oh shut up!
I'M IN A RELATIONSHIP WITH A MAN!

Liz Phair Podcast on
www.lizphair.com

Paranoia Me

RING RING... RING RING...

Mmmm exciting! Who could be calling?
It's a number i couldn't recognise. Answered,
and guess what. It was one of my bestest
friend from my school days, Cakoi.

Hey, how are you doing? Haven't heard from
you for such a long time!

We've known each other long long time. The
first few years, we were only hi-and-bye friends.
Then, we kinda hit it off, not the sexual way la.
We became close friends. I seriously dunno why.
We were so opposites to each other. We are of
different race and religion, physically incompatible,
And i think he cannot tahan mariah.

But i guess we do have things in common,
things that are more important that outlooks,
race or religion. When we got together, it was
all about crap. We talk rubbish, do silly things.
Oh now i know why... because out of the 30-odd
students in my class, only two of us were always
fooling around, not paying attention during lessons.

After school we went our separate ways pursuing
different dreams. I was shocked when he told me
he wanted to do medicine. Hell no! You were never
serious in your studies! I guess he had everything
planned carefully. Both of us were away from KL
but we were still in close contact.

Cakoi came back with the degree and was posted
to Sabah. That was also the time when I had
problems with my ex. He never approve the
relationship when he knew the real truth of it.
But he was still there for me everytime i needed
someone.

Time passed by, my relationship ended. Cakoi
found someone and got married. I was happy
for him but at the same time i felt we were drifting
apart. Maybe it was his work... the shitty working
hours, or his new attached life.

Somehow i couldn't help but felt that it could also
due to the fact that i was gay. He couldn't accept
homosexuality, perhaps he got tired of all my gay
adventures and stories.

Well, i guess i was being paranoid.

When he called, he asked about him. And if i am
in a new relationship. We had a good chat. But i
felt something missing, there was no rubbish talk.
Maybe its because he is already a husband?

One thing for sure, is that he may never accept
homosexuality... but he accepts me as i am.

Songs from The Emancipation of Mimi - Mariah

DON'T FORGET ABOUT US

Downloaded Mariah's latest video, Don't Forget About Us.
First listening to it, although it has been getting huge airplay
in the States. It's good... but not too infectious yet.
Maybe this is like WBT, which took a while to grow on me.

Nice video - she looks great. Plus there's a cute male model.
But not as cute as Miller Wenworth (ILT & WBT). Yummy!

Wake Up Call

House Phone RING RING... RING RING... RING RING...

Me (Mmmm Who can this be la? No one calls me at home one...)

Me Hello.

Ann Hi! Ru awake yet?

Me Mmmm yes i am.

Ann Oh... Thought you may be still in bed.

Me (Just woke up actually =>)

Don't Forget About Us - Mariah

You Know, Hubby?

Cindy You know? aBiM can take
really nice photos.

Cindy's hubby Issit?

Cindy Yes la.

Cindy's hubby Are you sure?
Or did he take from the Internet
and claim as his work?

~ BENGANG!! ~

Extraodinary - Liz Phair

Drink Drank DRUNK

Had a pack of instant noodles, with an egg.
Then saw the liquor in the fridge.

Mmmm maybe this can help me doze off tonite.

Mono - Courtney Love